Unto Her Will

Due to recent circumstances I shall not be writing in my blog for an unspecified amount of time.

I do hope to return to posting the promised articles once life settles. Unfortunately this may take a bit of time.

To all my friends here, I heartily apologise for my absence. I shall indeed miss you.

Be Well,
Ryan

Both Michael and Ms have returned and we are settling back into normal life once more. I missed them both terribly.

No doubt the greatest birthday joy was simply in having them return home.

For all those who wished me a pleasant birthday I express my most sincere gratitude. It was so kind of you to remember me.

On Thursday I had been forbidden by Fiona to stay the main house that morning and upon entering the great room that afternoon I saw the reason. The room was festooned with yellow, red and blue balloons and streamers printed with the words 'birthday boy' in blue. There were candles, banners, party favours and various treats freshly baked and offered up on the silver trays. It was quite a sight to behold.

We enjoyed quite a nice intimate party with delicious Indian cuisine and cake and ice cream for afters. Fiona, feeling a bit cheeky I suppose, decorated the cake, puncturing it with all 27 candles which by a miracle I did manage to blow out in one go.

Unfortunately by the end of the evening I felt a bit unwell due largely to drink. This rarely happens. So I hastily made my apologies, fearing I might be sick, and took to my bed at just gone midnight.

Michael has posted on his blog this evening about the child we expect this summer. He is right in saying that we are all delighted with the current situation.

I will admit that I am slightly anxious about this pregnancy. I fretted about the last one and it ended badly. I only hope that all will be well this time. Michael states in his blog that I am chasing Ms with vitamins and milk, but that is not wholly true. I am also armed with juice, both vegetable and fruit. (smile)

It is a joyful time and I do not wish to dampen it with my concerns. Ms is looking radiant and well, and Michael, apart from letting outside criticism get the better of him, is staying his course, more determined than ever to seek out his path in life; to become a man of acheivement and honour.

I shall be cross stitching a baby sampler for 'Junior' as Ms so fondly refers to the wee babe ensconced within Her. When I find a fitting pattern I shall post the picture of it here.

Be Well My Friends,

Ryan

It is nearly 10:00pm here and I've much on my mind.

The knowledge I have could be likened to so many pieces of a puzzle scattered here and there, but I shall state what I know here, for my own mental clarification.

Mistress spent Saturday night with Michael at Ms Liz's estate in Cambridge where he had been sent for additional training. I assumed this would take the place of Her Sunday visit and that perhaps some time on Sunday afternoon She would return home.

I was informed Sunday afternoon by phone that She would not be returning but rather would remain where She was. She did indicate that a revelation would be made to the boy and that he was likely to require Her presence afterwards.

There are those that know I am not in the dark with regard to the information Michael will be receiving. And though I long to be with them both at this time to offer my support and love, I know in my heart and by my own judgement that She is right in choosing to give the boy Her undivided attention. I would assume he has been a bit shaken by the revelation and even possibly in denial when informed.

This evening Mistress rang to say that upon recieving the information intended for him, Michael agreed to a new confirmation date early in the month of March. He had been considering other options.

I am delighted to hear that he will be staying with us. I feel a bit uncomfortable about having had knowledge of what would likely keep him here, but I was bidden by Mistress not to speak of it to anyone. There should be no guilt in obeying Her wishes, but I feel it nonetheless.

Ms and Michael will not return here until my birthday, which is the tenth of this month.

I did inquire as to why they should stay away so long and She informed me that I did not need that information at the present time. She reminded me of my oath to trust Her and not to question Her decisions, in particular those regarding Michael. She is absolutely correct. I apologised and withdrew my petition.

So I am sat here with my thoughts. I am human and thus I wonder, and suppose, and imagine. I am thinking of Michael. I know a part of his heart is likely deeply saddened at the prospect of not leaving to become alpha to the US Domme he came to care for last year. It has been a great struggle for him. I shall be here to offer my love and compassion in whatever capacity his need may dictate.

I also hope that Ms is getting Her rest and taking Her vitamins. So often last year it was necessary for me to remind Her.

I am pleased for them both for truly it is the beginning of a new era in our household.

In time it will become more evident that this is for the best and Michael will realise the joy of his heart in both service and fatherhood. For the time I accept that it will be bittersweet for him.

My next posting will be on the topic of Same Household Submissives. I have been doing a bit of online research as well as speaking to Damon and a few other boys within the Network to get their insight on the subject. I will combine this with my own personal experience and the copy will be placed on Mistress' desk for proofing and approval.

I apologise for the delay. Life does take so many different unpredictable turns.

Be Well My Friends,

Ryan

It is difficult to describe silence. The absence of sound... of life and excitement might be a proper start. One thing is for certain, where silence is, Michael isn't.

For a number of days now he has been at Ms Liz's for further training and discipline.

It is deathly quiet here. Like a tomb.

There are no other words at this time. I can think of nothing I wish to say.

I shall be writing on the topics I listed some time ago. I apologise for the delay.

Ryan