Good Morning, Friends.
I apologise for my absence. As Michael has posted, I was ill with a lung infection and spent a tidy little week in hospital undergoing treatment. As I may have stated before, I do not enjoy drawing undue attention to myself and should never like to be a burden to those around me. That being said, you may draw the correct conclusion that I knew myself to be unwell prior to fainting in Mistress' presence and thus removing all doubt.
Happily I am now on the mend and shall devote myself to catching up on all my duties, as well as my strength and endurance will allow. Each day I'm a bit better physically and can not complain. I would like to express my gratitude to those who were about to help me (MsV, my mother and father, Michael, nurses, doctors, hospital staff) and those here whose well wishes were relayed to me by Michael. Thank you all.
Upon reviewing the comments with regard to my next essay/commentary topic I have decided to respond first to Ms Antlady's request and give a bit of background detail. I will attempt to give satisfactory answers to Her questions as well.
Allow me to preface this by saying that I cannot in any way speak for all persons involved in BDSM, D/s, Femdom, etc... I will address matters regarding our personal household lifestyle. I have lived here for seven and one half years and would hope in that time to have become somewhat of an expert on Mistress Victoria's requirements and methodology. Also I might add that this is my perception of our reality. Ms or Michael may see things a bit differently to myself.
Ms Victoria has been training boys for nearly 20 years (by 2009) within Her Network of Domme Friends. She is a Female Supremacist, but a kind and loving one who does not resent the male of the species. Her primary interest, apart from the physical, is in refinement and overseeing the transformation of genetically tested, superior males into fine gentlemen. Her sadistic proclivities fall secondary to Her mission to refine and purify the male in general.
She believes, as do I, that males have a tendancy to brutishness and uncouth behaviour partially due to hormonal issues, and that in order to experience the true fullness of life they should be lovingly governed by a firm Female hand.
I have permission to reveal that I am the 17th boy to successfully earn his certificate through two years of training servitude. Several others, when faced with the full discipline, were unable to finish or simply declined to stay the course. There are limits to what I may elaborate on, but I will say that certain elements of the training are unfathomable for the faint of heart and boys of unyielding spirit were never tolerated beyond the first week.
Concerning contracts:
Michael is technically still under the terms of his training contract which extends to February 2008. Certain exceptions to the normally strict rules have been made in his case and he has been offered the Beta position several months early.
Ms Victoria certainly owes me no explanation, but She has mentioned that the leniency extended to Michael is due to several factors, not the least of which being Her intention for Michael to be the final graduate of Her training.
She has numerous times mentioned that he is unlike any other boy She has trained not only in his unbelievable stamina for physical punishment but in his boyish charm and entertaining personality. It is difficult to remain unaffected by the boy.
I have a life-long contract with a yearly review of my performance. The contract is perhaps much like a marriage contract, an agreement between persons to maintain an association with certain criteria to be met. It is not a business contract, per se, but within the Network a service contract is perhaps even more weighty than a business contract.
Michael and I are not paid by MsV for our submission. It is a gift of the will which we present to Her. Although I might hasten to add that Michael and myself are both employed by Mistress. My position being equivilent to that of a major domo/butler and Michael's being Her personal accountant. This is considered separate, to a certain extent, from our abject servitude to Her as our Domina.
Concerning the positions of Alpha, Beta, Gamma etc... :
The Alpha position is the highest ranking level of service within our household. Many duties fall to this boy as well as his bearing the brunt of responsibility for the actions of other servants within the house. He is charged with responsibility to set the pace and be an example for those beneath him and also to help in the training of the lower boy(s).
Alpha must be highly discreet and hold his Mistress' confidence to the point of death if need be. He is entrusted with much and equally much is expected of him. It is a position of great honour which is usually hard earnt. As Alpha I may, under Mistress' direction, command Michael and expect his immediate obedience without question.
Beta is beneath Alpha to the degree that Mistress chooses. It has been Her intent with Michael to groom him to be a 'Close Beta' which would be perceived, within the Network, as a secondary Alpha. In time I would educate him to carry out each of my duties to increase his worth and to allow more flexibility in our schedules. I would likely share the yoke of burden with him in order to give more personal service and attention to Mistress.
Michael shall be taking a bit of time away in the next few weeks before returning here for confirmation and his induction. He is travelling to Miami to visit with his aunt and friends before making this major commitment.
He has given me his mother's ring to hold as security insuring his return. The three of us have met this morning and he shall leave for Miami on Monday with Mistress' blessing and mine.
His return is scheduled for November 30th. He has asked for a 'Pineapple upside down cake' for his 24th birthday on December 1st. I will do my best to oblige him although I have no recipe as of yet. Last year it was a Red Velvet cake that was quite lovely.
I suppose I shall continue to forge on with explanations and background information in my next entry.
Until my next posting, I wish you all health and happiness.
Ryan